Can we ever go back?

Dear Powerless,

Growing up you were my hero and I wanted to be just like you. I remember watching your every move then later trying to talk like you, walk like you, dress like you and being interested in the same things that you liked.

But I never liked pot like you.

I never liked to drink like you.

I never liked to be the center of attention like you.

I never liked lying like you.

I never liked getting arrested like you.

What's happened?

When did things change?

When did you go from role model to embarrassment?

Can we ever go back to me just being your little brother and you being the star?

I don't like being the "big brother". I just want to be your biggest fan like when we were kids. Truly, deep down, I am still your biggest fan because I know the real you.

Sincerely,

Little brother of an addict/alcoholic